NEW POST: I am still feeling emotions about Kansas Football despite my best efforts #kufball
Never running dry!
Read the Post Here: https://joebush.net/2021/10/31/i-am-still-feeling-emotions-about-kansas-football-despite-my-best-efforts/
Postscript -
Hello Sadness turns ten in November. The title track is my favorite off the album and I didn’t want to just directly put “It’s only hope that springs eternal / and that’s the reason why / this dripping from my broken heart / is never running dry” but that is effectively what I’m saying here. I didn’t want to put that in there because I used to do that constantly
My relationship to that song and that idea has changed from what it used to be. It used to be the woeful melancholy from it, but I come to appreciate that I can’t turn it off now. That I got through last year without becoming some emotionless, misanthropic, cynical husk of a man is something I am proud of. That I got through the year at all with a heart that still worked well enough to be broken by something like this is something I’m happy about. It feels juvenile to still be feeling like this and making that same connection between this specific music act and this specific sports team as an adult, and it is worthy of ridicule, but I don’t care anymore. I think I’m naïve about this but I don’t want to accept that adulthood just has to be unending emptiness, constantly hovering between 3/10 and 7/10 on an emotional scale, I might spend the rest of my life fighting that question but I hope I never accept it.